Honorable Theodore Roosevelt July 4, 1886

"But as you already know your rights and privileges so well, I am going to ask you to excuse me if I say a few words to you about your duties. Much has been given to us. . . and we must take heed to use aright the gifts entrusted to our care. It is not what we have that will make us a great nation; it is the way in which we use it. I do not undervalue for a moment our material prosperity; like all Americans, I like big things; big praries, big forests and mountains, big wheat fields, railroads . . . big factories, sreamboats, and everything else. But we must keep steadfastly in mind that no people were ever yet benefited by riches if their prosperity corrupted their virtue."

July 4, 1886:
Hon Theodore Roosevelt,
Addressing the first Independence Day celebration
In Dickinson, Dakota Territory.

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That is just ignorant!

So I get into this conversation with someone at work about cancer and treatment and such. She asked me if I was getting treatment and I told her no because I didnt believe that it was right to get something like that which is not guaranteed to work for one, and may fix the cancer issue but ruins your vital organs in the process... It is just my belief and my choice. So what does she say? She told me that I was stupid and that anyone in their right mind would do it...

Okay, here goes my smart mouth and my thought processes out in the open....

First of all, if you are stupid, how can you be in your right mind??? Just wondering...

Second, I believe everyone has opinions and options in life. This is the path that I have chosen for ME! I dont regret a single thing that I have decided regarding my medical issues. I live every day like it is my last because if you dont, you will have regrets at the Pearly Gates.

I would appreciate it if you dont support my decision, please do not call me stupid... Or at least come up with a better name to call me! :)

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Looking at Old Pictures

I have been asked to look at my old pictures to pick some good ones out for the memorial service.  I didn't realize that it would be so difficult but it is.  I am actually finding other things to do besides look at the pictures.  Is that normal?  I don't know.  I reckon that I just don't want to deal with it right now although I know that it needs to get done.  Anyway, I never realized how much pent up energy and anger and crying can be brought up by looking at pictures of a dead relative.  It kinds sux.

Finding my Inner Peace sux at times... I don't think I have found it yet....

~Nina Anne~

Death Has Come

Well, the time has come.  The death bell has rung and has taken several lives this past few days.  One of these lives brings me to a depression stage that I thought I wouldn't be in.  My mother passed away from her cancer diagnosis on October 23rd.  My heart is broken yet rejoices because I know that she is no longer in pain.  

For those of you that know me, my mother and I had been estranged for many years.  I just recently went back to Vegas to get a relationship back with my mother.  Although it was difficult, I thought I was making progress.  I didn't trust my mother for a long time.  It took just a few minutes to realize that sometimes you have to be the bigger person in situations like that and I swallowed my pride.  I went back to Vegas when I found out that my mother has terminal cancer.  I thought that it was a ploy to get me out there and it seemed like that all the way until the last few days before she died.  It just didn't seem real.  I questioned her every move and why she was doing the stuff that she said she was doing.  I didn't understand and I realize that I still don't understand.  My heart is broken.  I have failed as a daughter because I didn't put the trust in my mother like I said I was going to do.  I have failed once again.  I hope that she as well as the Good Lord will be able to forgive me.

I am tired and in need of rest.  I am trying to find my Inner Peace.

~Nina Anne~

Initial Blog

Well, the time is here.  I have this need to blog again.  I used to do this awhile back and I am sure that if you look hard enough on the internet that you will find some of my old works.  But times have changed and I am sure my writings have changed as well.  I am no longer the person needing people to see me... I am me.  If you don't like it... well you know where the door is!  Don't let the door hit ya where the Good Lord split ya!  I have this insatiable need to just write.  Sometimes about nothing.  Sometimes about everything.  I could care less if anyone reads it or not.  I am letting out emotions that have been bottled up inside for too long.  I need this PEACE and this is the only way I know how to do that... besides crocheting!  So... if you are easily confused... bored... then this is not for you.  Some days I won't make any sense... but it is my blog and that is how I usually am anyway... confusing!  I'm creating my Inner Peace.

~Nina Anne~